Rain Shopping

Yes- the (possibly) last entry of this offline diary. Hopefully they’ll all be online after this one. It’s September 30th and I need to go shopping. I need to see if someone will take me to the nearby 百円 store (for everyone that doesn’t read kanji- 100 yen store) so I can get it… I feel really shy about asking though but we’ll see if Ariane will take me there. If not- there’s one in Kichijouji that I can find fairly easily. I need to really clean everything I received from the previous tenant honestly. In fact, I’ve decided that to save some money in the long run, that I’m just going to use the hot water maker and just boil my water before putting it into a container….. hopefully I won’t receive some kind of plastic sickness- it’s not sounding very smart all of a sudden.
But in order to get to that point- I need to clean it x.x and I have nothing to clean it with unfortunately. Same goes for my laundry >.> I could’ve gone yesterday but I felt so tired that I halfway slept until… 3pm? ish? I’m not sure. But I really need to go today and I’d rather not spend the 270 yen to get to Kichijouji- I’d prefer to walk- even if it’s raining. I have an umbrella for that.
Ah- the rain. I’ve never felt more in connection with my songs before. Endless Rain isn’t just a song- it’s the state that my residence has been in for the last about… 4 days. My small terrace flooded with about 2 inches of water and I sat there giggling about how frogs were going to come and live in it. Then I remembered that I was on the second floor… I’ll settle for butterflies. There wasn’t any rain yesterday though- the day I didn’t go out- but that was yesterday and this is today. And it’s raining.
Another song I’ve never felt such a connection with before- It’s a Fine Day (Acid Android). It really was a lovely day yesterday but I could not force myself to go out into it- even with the shopping that I had to do. Everyone’s worn me out over the last few days. Especially with back to back trips to Kichijouji… and yes- I know- I fail at remembering things while I’m out. Horribly. That’s why I have a list now lol. My list is: laundry detergent, dish soap, scubbies for dishes, water?, juice, and dinner. My brain is failing me in English right now- that’s why they’re called scrubbies. Especially since I don’t know the Japanese for them XD but that’s okay- I’ll learn.
And I just checked the door alarms. Ariane’s gone. Crap ;_; maybe if I ask Julie nice- she’ll take me to the close by one. I really need to go.
Well I’m going to ask and see how far that gets me. If it doesn’t get me far at all- I may ask Ariane when she comes back… I just feel so nervous about leaving the dorm alone.

- The Lost American

PS - I feel like a hikkokimori- what a shut-in is called in Japan- kinda like a hermit I guess… but yeah- I feel like that. X.X I don’t think that’s a good thing- at ALL.

PPS – (lulz first one of these) I got directions and the rain’s coming down harder x.x I almost don’t want to leave again but I have to