Thursday, October 28, 2010
J-Band Goodness and Classes
In December, I’m going to go see one of my favorite bands, the GazettE, perform at the Tokyo Dome! I’m really excited about it but it also means that I really can’t do too much else for a large portion of the year. I’m mildly jealous of everyone going to the fan club only L’arc~en~Ciel live on the first of the year to start off their 20th anniversary. I am going to save ALL of my money as best I can (here I come instant ramen) and go to see my absolute FAVORITE band live- I swear! <3 I know that I’ve already seen VAMPS live, but L’arc~en~Ciel is a completely different atmosphere, especially here in their home country I’m sure. I was invited to go to a Nightmare concert but that kind of fell though and I’m slightly glad. Although Nightmare would’ve been pretty cool- I’m sure I wouldn’t have known too many of their songs as I became a fan and fell out of being a very large fan pretty quickly. Now if it was vistlip, I think I would change my mind and try my hardest to go as they’re one of my new favorite kinda Indies bands. They’re really big popular now it seems though but I’m happy to have at least seen them before I came here. On the other hand, SID fever seems to have overtaken me and most of the people I see online and off. I see SID stuff EVERYWHERE and they’re extremely popular. I mean- you can hardly find things in used stores for cheap- it’s ALL so expensive. Which saddens me because I kinda wanted an album… but that’s okay- they’re not my favorite. Though I do love them a lot~~… *cough**cough*Aki*cough**cough*…. Anyways~~~ <3 (that does NOT work well typing XD) So~~ classes are going swimmingly… never been sure what that term REALLY means- I just know it means good. I’m learning new phrases all the time and forgetting half of them in five minutes. I really need to remember “I’m just looking” for anytime I walk into the 109 building or anywhere else for that matter. But yeah- learning AWESOME phrases and more kanji than I can shake a stick at… hmm… seems I’m into the clichéd phrases today. But it’s all quite true. I think I’m doing okay in the classes- I can’t wait to do more programming though in my Web Design class. Since we only have class once a week- it’s hard to wait for it, on the other hand though, Genji seems to be going slightly above my head. Though I can mostly understand the text- I obviously cannot get the meanings behind the text. Especially some of the important ones. Maybe I’m just reading this in too much of a hurry or when I’m too tired to actually give it my full attention. Like I missed the whole “he consummated his relationship with Murasaki” part. Yeah. Complete failure on my part. Hopefully I’ll get better with time- I’ve got three chapters to read for Thursday’s class. Wish me luck~~~!!! - One lost American PS – dorm internet is AWESOMES~~~ <33333…… yeah- that’s all I’ve got for today >>;;;;
Thursday, October 21, 2010
Missing home
I’m depressed.
And no- it’s not the typical culture shock depressed. I think I’ve been depressed for a while without realizing it and it’s just taken distance to actually see it.
I miss being in Marching Band horribly. It filled such a large portion of my life during High school that I miss it horribly in college. UNCC doesn’t have a Marching Band but each day as I walk to building 11 at Sophia, I see the brightly colored paper poster for Sophia’s Marching Band. I smile as I walk past it each day, with its pictures and instruments and smiling faces but I think inside- it tears a bit more at me each time I do see it.
I miss being a part of that unit- being “in the band” as my mom used to say. I miss it horribly and not being able to attend any competitions this year is making it worse. Sure I was unable to at home as well but at least there was the option and I did try a few times to make it back.
I miss picking my flute up almost every day and practicing a piece of music. I miss going out and practicing drills on the field for hours. I miss being around the people who made band special for me- all of my friends that I hung out with during breaks and chatted about everything but the music we were playing.
I remember Band Camp. That special week at the beginning of August where all of us would show up and begin to learn all of our pieces, all of our places on the field. I loved that time spent out in the heat and the times that my first drum major would chide me for wearing jeans out in the 110 degree weather. I was and still am very shy about my legs being shown to people, and I do still burn quite easily in sunlight. I miss being called to attention- no matter how much I might’ve complained about it afterwards, or complained about the length of time we worked on drills or music consistently.
But I loved it.
That music is something that was a big part of me- always playing, always listening. I suppose it’s why I can’t go anywhere without having my ears plugged into the little electronical device that spews out random songs in English and Japanese now. Because I don’t play anymore. I don’t play flute anymore and this year I’m definitely not learning how to play my bass guitar.
I miss both. Even if I sucked horribly at playing bass, I enjoyed the feel of the different instrument under my fingers, running my hand down the fret board and attempting to play some of my favorite songs.
I suppose it reminded me of what I lost when I graduated high school and became a member of a school that didn’t have a football team or Marching Band. The music.
I went back and found some videos of old performances from about 3 years ago and simply began crying as I watched them. I really miss this thing that’s become a huge gap in my life, a gigantic sink hole where something used to be. I miss the order and structure it brought to my life and all of the people I met and made friends with, even if some of the friendships ended up badly put back together a couple of times.
It’s something that I loved every minute of and I regret leaving, even if I couldn’t help the leaving. I thought I was happy to leave but I remember holding back my tears at the graduation ceremony as I played the Star-Spangled Banner for the last time on my Geminhart flute, that I had to have, with it’s in-line G and the B foot. I miss picking the Gem up and spouting off a few lines of Kingdom Hearts, or playing Jump in the Line with the rest of the band at Football competitions. I miss watching the drum major bring us all together and I miss the circle we would make around our band director after our performance at a football game until a halt was called and he gave us the words of encouragement for the next day’s competition or just encouragement overall.
I miss all of it.
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I really think I am depressed to write simply about this for a whole blog post. I’m thinking about seeing if I can talk someone into going to a Japanese competition with me. I doubt anyone will want to go to such an event however. So… no band again this year for me. I miss it so much and karaoke-ing to a computer is a poor replacement for having an instrument in your hand and performing for a large group of people in the stands along with all of your friends.
………………maybe I should become a rock star?
- one Lost american
Sickness and Internet
On the downside, I’m feeling a bit ill. My throat hurts and my nose is running so I think I’ve caught some sort of cold. I also feel pretty tired all the time and just feel like staying in bed, even if I can’t. I get the feeling that I may lose my voice if I continue talking a lot too so this may turn bad, but it could be worse. I could be laid up for a week and be VERY sick with an inability to go anywhere or do anything, so I’m happy to have what I have right now.
Tomorrow I’m going to buy some chicken again and do some cooking. I don’t think I’ll buy drumsticks again as that didn’t seem to work out too well honestly. I was doing more work removing the meat from the bone that I did in cooking. I’ll have to buy simple breast meat or something like that. So it’s time for another adventure in cooking! ^o^
I’ve also got a lesson test tomorrow and Tyesha came by yesterday to see if she could get some games from me. Unfortunately, Sims 3 didn’t work and I need a bigger disk to make the last episode work so I need to speak to the person that gave it to me >.> I really wanted to play that too. So did Tyesha lol.
Anyways… I’m doing fairly well for being sick so it looks like this blog entry is going to be pretty short. I grabbed a couple more Laruku albums for superbly cheap though ^^;;; I feel bad. Shimokitazawa is interesting to walk around though. I’ve got some work to do but I think I might put it off until later cos I feel like working on some of my stories. I don’t know what I’m going to work on… Oasis or Misfortune’s Fortune or maybe another one. I’m not really sure. Either way- I doubt I’m going to be doing much studying and such for my test, like usual. I think I need to work a bit harder but being sick- it’s hard to work hard. Oh the irony.
Wish me Luck!
- One Lost (and sick) American
PS – a few days late on the posting but better late than never! Am getting better AND there’s internet in the dorm now!
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
Classes and internet
A great success happened the other day though, I cooked my own food for the first time without burning anything and it tasted good! I cooked up some pieces of chicken, added some bean sprouts, and then finally added a pack of instant noodles. It was very good and even though I ate a lot of it, I had enough for lunch the next day. I’m so proud of myself ^.^v やった!
Anyways- the classes right now are fairly easy so I’m very happy. My hardest class to keep up with is Japanese, as we have homework and class EVERY day. My Literature class had Yung and Julie in it but both of them dropped out, Yung mainly because he said his English is very bad and he was having a difficult time understanding anything. I don’t know why Julie dropped out. For me, the class seems fairly straightforward and easy as long as I really work in it I think. I’ve had a lot of work analyzing text throughout my classes in my high school AP English courses so I think I’m fairly well set to take on the challenge of Pre-modern Japanese poetry, prose, and poem-tales.
On the other hand, Culture and Identity is very engaging and I think it’ll be harder to keep up with the ideas behind what I’m reading in this course. In fact, even in my first assignment, though I had a different answer from most people in the classroom, was still fairly far off from what Kelsky (the author) actually intended. Perhaps this class will cause me to look at things in a different light? I think that will be a very good thing and still quite enjoyable.
My last class I’ve only had once so far and the next time I have it is tomorrow. I can’t wait. I get to design my own webpage using a program called “Dreamweaver”. I have a friend attempting to get me a copy of it (torrent possibly) so I can work on my site from home and not have to worry about working on it only during the class. The teacher seems to be a lighthearted person, much like my other teachers, so I’m very happy. I think he’ll also explain a lot better than some of the teachers I’ve had in the past. I can’t wait to actually start designing since I want to redesign my three blog sites, including this one.
All in all, it’s been a lot of fun so far, my plant seems to be doing well- I’m sticking it outside during the day and bringing it in when I come home for the day. It’s a クロトン…. I have no clue what this is honestly. All I know is that it’s cute and when I get a chance, I’ll put pictures of it up on my Facebook. I’ve also bought some sewing and drawing supplies as well. I’ve already drawn a picture of a girl but I don’t know if I’ll put that up lol… she has no real face honestly because whenever I tried to draw it, it didn’t come out right. I think it looks more mysterious that way but I really want her to have eyes and a mouth honestly. >>;;; well… it was a good thought in the first place XD.
Anyways, I need to go to Harajuku to the Dai… something… the 百円 store. I’m going to pick up a white board, some more little flash card thingies, see if I can find a knife sharpener, and possibly bug spray since the flying ants seem to like my room whenever I open up my doors. It’s annoying to have to keep them shut all the time now. I enjoy having the actual air blowing into my room.
Anyways- it’s Wednesday, I have all of my homework done SAVE for the Culture and Identity because I need Internet access for that and I was too busy with other things at school today (aka kind of talking to too many people and downloading the movie Tuan kindly put up for me) so I didn’t really work on the assignment. My headphones don’t work on my little Acer computer anyways and I’m unsure why… they work fine on my Toshiba.
Oh well. I’m going to eat, possibly work on clothing, probably work on Misfortune’s Fortune (my awesome story that sucks people in apparently XD) and then go to sleep. ^^v
- One Lost American Girl
PS – not much to say here honestly today. I’m getting the books for Culture class shipped to me and am considering asking for my studio headphones. My MP3 player is beginning to fall apart as well- which makes me really sad. I think my instant きつねうどん is done XD
Sunday, October 10, 2010
STILL no interwebs
Yes STILL no freaking internet. I’m getting highly annoyed at this point. I was told that he called but basically went “yeeeah they have to come back and put one in each room”. One on its own costs 5000 a month- there’s no way I can afford that! So whoever spoke to him (Sergio) said that we wanted wi-fi but Yamanobe-san’s reply was “eeeh I don’t understand.” I don’t get what he doesn’t understand- his English is REALLY good compared to the guy in Akihabara that I tried to get to understand that I needed to get a wireless card for the router. Geez… he just doesn’t like us- I don’t understand why he’s running the dorm. >>;;;;
Anyways- went to Akihabara on an unplanned trip today with Tyesha. It was pretty cool and I want to go back with someone from the dorm here to go into some stores and inquire about a card. Maybe we can just get one and use it- I’ll need the model number and specifications of the router in Ariane’s room but that’ll be it I think. I’m not sure what kind goes into a router. I’ve never had that problem before. だいじょうぼう、I’m sure we’ll get it fixed soon… hopefully- otherwise I may be at school an extra two hours every day. This is insane.
Found an awesome store in Harajuku yesterday though! It’s called Yellow House. The lady there speaks fantastic English and it’s obvious from all the pictures that a bunch of different Jrockers go there for clothing and jewelry… the jewelry is really cheap too! I wanna buy a necklace but… I don’t know… But there were sooo many pictures. She said it’s all her design and she’s been open 29 years. The picture of Miyavi on the wall standing next to her in the EXACT same place I was standing made me begin to believe her. I usually doubt such stories but… this one I think I might believe. I love a lot of the clothing in there too- it’s quite beautiful.
Anyways- food~! I need to buy and wash some things to prepare but I want to buy some chicken, salt and stuff to cook some better food than instant noodles tomorrow. But I need to buy some tubberware as well- some containers to stick food in. I think I might go to the hyaku en store in Harajuku between classes tomorrow and buy some stuff before going to my 3:15 class. It’s not that far away honestly- about 10-20 minutes. I’ll just buy my lunch at school and eat it on the way or when I get back or something, I’m sure I’ll have enough time. I might also take the time on either Tuesday or Wednesday to upload some pictures. Idk how though- I’ll have to bring a larger drive than what I usually use. I don’t know if it’ll work either. There’s a LOT of pictures lol XD including those of what my breakfast usually is.
Usually in America I don’t eat breakfast- but here- I’m feeling like it’s a necessity honestly to keep going throughout the day. I’ve been doing my dishes somewhat regularly- though there’s not much to clean honestly until today cos I had to rush. I did my laundry- which is hanging on my balcony- here’s praying it’s not raining tonight. And I’ve written this blog, and made dinner and ate it. ^^v I feel mildly accomplished with that hot water heater thing under control XD. Now I have to follow mom’s directions that she sent me and create a new meal. I don’t want to be eating instant noodles all year!
OH! I got my alien registration card! Apparently you have to give it back when you leave the country though… but I want to keep mine- for the memories that it’ll bring me. Even if quite a bit of these first few weeks was sitting in my room and watching anime and playing games on my laptop lol. I tend not to go exploring by myself- save for yesterday in Harajuku. It was fun though! I enjoyed myself. I may go to Shimokitazawa sometime soon too- it was mentioned in one of my animes and I was amazed that I could say “I know where that is!” …. Lol, I’m such a dork. I keep seeing people playing Pokemon Black and White too ><>> Anna said she’d get me a copy anyways for the eumlator! <3 ^^;;;;
So I’m going to watch this one episode of Betterman (Japanese with Eng subs ^.^) and then I’m going to do some homework… if my contacts don’t fall out- this is a new pair and it almost feels like some stuff’s blurry >>;;; how weird. Oh well. I get up at 6:30 to take a shower and get ready. It feels good to be back on a good schedule. Tyesha said she might come over tomorrow and copy the games I have. I really don’t mind- I think it’ll be fun honestly. I know that she’ll enjoy the FF games I have and it’s always good to spread that kind of cheer around I think- being able to play a system that you couldn’t bring with you… Thinking on systems… I haven’t played PSP in a while ._. hm. How weird.
Anyways- I have things to do that I know I’ll get distracted with! XD
- One Lost American
Wednesday, October 6, 2010
Random Thoughts
10/3/2010 Still no internet at the dorm. One would think that getting internet services in Japan though the person that’s running your dorm would be simple but no. Yamanobe-san seems to constantly misunderstand and delay and put off everything involving we exchange students. Just tonight, Ariane attempted to speak with him and with her Japanese skills, though they far outstrip mine, she was unable to explain and get him to understand what we needed him to do. In fact, he seems to dislike Ariane the most, probably because she’s the most expressive out of all of us. Not really sure about it but… something’s going to be done since Julie and Sergio spoke to him now about it. I think he’s going to call tomorrow. I don’t what we’ll do if he doesn’t.
Anyways~ My walls are decorated now! I have a bunch of fliers and a couple of cheap posters up so I’m happy. I feel more at home now instead of the place being so barren. All of my things are moved in and I’m learning how to use the water boiler properly. My kitsune udon didn’t quite come out so good last time so I waited a while longer and let the water actually boil lol. My instant ramen turned out much better this time. I’m not exactly sure what it was though… wakabe? That may have been the name of it… not sure- I already ate and threw away the packaging.
I’ve taken a few more pictures of my room too. OH! And I got a cute little plant. Pictures of it will be up at the same time as pictures from my room. I think I’m going to be uploading pictures for a VERY long time when I finally get internet on my main computer. I’m happy I was talked into bringing the second one- even if it was heavy in my bag.
The weather’s getting to be a mix between cool and hot now. Extremely hot when the sun’s out but very cool when it goes behind clouds or begins to go down. And does it go down EARLY here. Even with fall coming on in the US I’m not used to the sun setting at about 4pm I swear. It rises at about 5/6pm and sets at 4/5pm. I’ve been amazed by that for a while now actually. While in the US it was setting as late as 7pm before I left. I almost miss that but the city seems to come even more alive with the departure of the sun. I feel at home here in a way because of my sensitivity to sunlight lol. I’m in a country full of vampires XD.
Random jokes aside- I’m really enjoying myself. I’m going to go to Aikido on Saturday because I missed today’s meeting from a mix up with days and classes. I’m not used to a Monday, Thursday and Tuesday, Friday schedule for classes instead of Monday, Wednesday and Tuesday, Thursday. So I missed it because I thought my Literature class was today. Imagine my surprise and shock when the room was completely EMPTY. So I ran back downstairs and into the library to check my room numbers only to see that I had written down on my paper “Mon. Thurs.” Boy did I feel stupid. And then I wandered around for about 20 minutes trying to figure out where Aikido was because I didn’t have that paper with me either. I couldn’t find it but I’ll figure it out on Saturday when I have more time. ^.^v
On another side note… I may need to get a smaller bag… My book bag is very large for fitting on trains and such. I’m considering getting mom to send me a smaller one but then my computer might not fit. I’m not sure about this yet… I’ll figure it out soon. I have to get some books sent to me anyways.
- One not so Lost anymore American
Internet connection problems
WARNING! this blog contains curse words cos I was so ticked off WARNING!
I hoped that when I put up the last blog- number 3 on Sophia’s internet connection- that I would post the next one on Sunday (today- October the 3rd) and be able to speak with everyone as I normally would. In fact, Yamanobe-san made it sound as if that would be what would happen- that everyone would receive wi-fi and we would all be able to access the internet whenever we needed to.
Unfortunately this is not the case. Turns out that only one of us received the internet- Ariane- because her room was the one that the so called router was stuck into. The router needs a wireless card for it to work which is highly depressing. So there is still no internet for four of us. かなしいです。
Onto other topics. All of my dishes are clean, I love strawberry jam, and I’m going to see how well I can boil water with the water boiler thing. So then I can have clean water anytime I want it. ^o^ It should be okay, ne? Filling the bottles up to reuse them? Well it’ll be one less expense for me. I’m actually attempting to figure out what other courses I need to take since I wasn’t automatically signed into them. -.- This system of classes is highly annoying. Especially since I can’t read all of the Japanese. I was only placed into Japanese 150. It seems too easy but… I think I need it honestly- there are things in this course that I know that I don’t know.
Oh and pictures! I have a bunch of pictures that will go online once I am able to. I got pictures of the temple right down the street, where I live, my room, lots of things. Lots of pictures of band posters too. Never did realize that Ruki’s wearing PINK sparkly eyeliner in the new picture ._. とてもへんです。 Well I’ve signed up to receive tickets for the final concert- hopefully I can go. Either that or I’m going to sign up to get into L’arc~en~Ciel’s fanclub so I can attend their live on New Year’s day. I certainly can’t do both. I’ll be extremely happy at either event although, I would probably like the Laruku one better because I know them better than the GazettE. But GazettE’s cheaper >.> and I need my money, even if I’m going to be drawing off of my Wachovia fund for this (hopefully!!). Otherwise it’s Laruku… Maybe. Maybe SID would be better. All I know is that I want to go to a concert that I haven’t been to. Tyesha has this thing with Tower Records and Miyavi. She’s happy but she’s not sure exactly what it is. I’m mildly jealous- only because it seems to be a small thing where she can meet him. I missed my meet and greet with VAMPS. It can’t be helped though and can’t be undone.
ANYWAYS. Back to the main point of this blog. No internet until we receive a wireless card because for some weird reason- the cord isn’t working on my wired stuff. How weird. ;_; and sad. かなしいです。 So no internet for me until we get that damn wireless card that should’ve been here in the first place. Oh dear. I’m getting worked up about it again. I think I’m going to be lazy today and slouch around some. I need to do laundry too. *sigh* which costs money ><>
*sigh* Well. Off to do something.
- One Lost (and angry) American